Monday was a public holiday in Uganda, which means that I had a little more time to myself that normal. I was listening to a song called, “You See” by Jonathan David Helser, and it seemed good for me to write the lyrics in my journal. The whole song is about how I, or we humans, usually see things differently than the way God sees them. It compares what we see, to what God sees.
It took me back to a night when I was praying at Pastor Tim’s house (some of you know him). God told me that he was opening doors for people that night. Then I saw a vision of a door opening in front of me (God speaks to me a lot through visions). When I went through the door, I saw two levels. The upper level, where the door opened, was a wasteland. It was arid and desolate – except for a few dead trees and shrubs. But the lower level, down a flight of stairs, was a lush garden, full of life and lit up with vibrant colors. Then I understood that it was exactly the same place, the two levels merely represented two ways of looking at my surroundings. The top level is how the world sees things, the bottom level is how God sees things. God was opening this door to me and inviting me to see things the way He sees them, which usually means going lower, stepping off the high-horse of my understanding, like Jesus did when he stepped out of heaven and came to earth.
I want to see things the way God sees them. I want to see not only the potential He sees, but also the finished work He sees. Christians often say the victory over sin and death is already won because of Jesus’ death and resurrection, and rightly so, it says the same in the Bible. But how often do we see the victory when we’re in the middle of a battle? Do we see what Jesus sees, or do we see what the devil wants us to see?
The past month or so has been really challenging for me. Things at Doors Ministries are great, I’m seeing each part of the ministry growing deeper and the staff pressing more and more toward Jesus, so it’s not the ministry that is pulling me down. What I’ve realized is that the devil was showing me a lot of lies about myself, about Doors, about my future, and I was seeing those instead of the truth that Jesus is presenting to me. Sure there are some factors that have added to this: it’s felt like more of a chore to abide in Jesus, which is the place we see things like He does; and I’ve felt pretty isolated from the people who typically encourage me to see things rightly when I don’t. So yes, it’s been really hard, but the fruit I have now is a desperation to be near Jesus, to see things as he sees them, to know Him. “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.”
I hope this song encourages you too 🙂
(the video itself is a little weird, mainly listen)
Jonathan David Helser
I see a mountain, you see a miracle.
I see a wasteland, you see a garden.
I see dry bones, you see an army.
I see impossible, you see everything.
I see a seed, you see a harvest.
I see the water, you see the wine.
I see the broken, you see your body.
I see my enemy, you see a footstool.
You are I AM, But I’ve been so blind all this time.
My God, touch me, I want to see the way you see.
I see my sins, you see your blood.
I see a baby, you see a Savior.
I see my failures, you see redemption.
I see a beggar, you see a son.
I see my Father, you see your son.
I see my shepherd, you see your lamb.
I see my Savior, you see your joy.
I see your eyes, they’re staring back at mine.